Another day I had to leave early from work to take Puja to a doctor. So, far I have done a good job of not letting guilt come in my way. It is hard not to feel guilty about it given the amount of stuff that happens at work everyday.
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Apple has shipped the iMac 8 days earlier than expected. Pretty cool.

Another mild day in January as New York enjoys the warmest winter in my memory. Started listening to Dostoevsky's Idiot today. Condsidering it is about 24 hours long and I can do about half and hour a day -- we are talking 48 days -- which means about 2 and half months considering I never have a paper or a magazine or another book to read on the way to work. Sounds incredibly hard. Maybe I can listen to it during the jogs.
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My sister's son Animesh heads off to Australia on the 1st of February. I am very happy for him. Young lad of 21 with hope in his heart and fire in his belly heading to a new land full of promise. He is going to do a master's program in computer science. He is an excellent guitar player and should get some opportunity to show his skills. What a wonderful feeling it must be.
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Puja braved work today and is feeling terrible. No luck there.
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Almost seems like I got something done at work today. Something more than pushing issue around.

Just read that Chris Cairns of New Zealand is retiring from International Cricket. Good for him. However, when I learned that he has been playing in the New Zealand team for 16 years that's when it struck me. I saw this guy on his debut. I saw his father Lance Carins score his fastest fifty. Man, the slow but sure realization of age is here. I am getting old. A fact I'd like to deny by exercising, changing hairstyle, wearing nice clothes, but its there and nothing can be done about it.

Every day should bring this question - what do I want to do today? What is going to make today different from every other day? What is going to make today shine?

I have no answers, of course, but there is a sense of almost constant loss. Not a great colossal loss but a simple, garden variety, daily loss. Life chipping a bit at life everyday. And then the fearsome burden as to what I can do to make it better? I don't know yet and most days I go through the day driven by intertia or driven by what gets thrown at me rather than what my plan for the day is. I react therefore I am. I can debate about whether that is the way to go or whether there should be a plan. I don't quite know.

So I ordered the new intel-based iMac yesterday. The damn thing isn't shipping for month but I cannot hold my excitement. A brand-new machine and that too with a new technology. Very exciting. So much more to learn and redo...oh..oh...that didn't sound as great as it should have but in any case, I cannot wait to see or hear what the hype is. The machines are supposed to be incredibly good and fast. Hopefully they deliver.

I was so looking forward to these four days of time off. However, today is the fourth day and I feel like I have had enough. Work, much as I hate it, seems to be the only thing that I actually feel engrossed in. It is a pity.